watson's rant

2012-01-31T02:09:00.003+08:00

" Dumb... Sometimes, I cant loosen up... I cant live in the moment...
You're one person, who can make me feel like I'm actually living.

First time i knew you, i hated you, i always felt like time is running out.
Yet you always take your own time. But in time, I envy you.
You are a much happier person than me... "

a little heartwarming message from my editor-to-be sweetheart.
thank you for helping me remember that I can in fact, inspire people.

2011-12-29T16:33:00.002+08:00

finally, ord lo!

i didn't felt as happy as what others claim it to be like.
derive that its probably because 1 and a 1/2 month prior to ord,
i was already on long term mc, already busy studying for exam.
therefore, the transition already began unknowingly.

speaking of mc, i had all my wisdom tooth extracted and the implant on my pinky removed.
alot of time spent on hospital during that period, glad its well over now.

cain left for melbourne right after we finish service.
gonna miss this coffee & cigarette buddy of mine so much.

bonded really well with my schoolmates, thankfully!
i'm having a break now, which also mean i'm lazing at home everyday!
i've been trying to get a job in the bank, but the market is so bad! SIGH!
i fully understand the pain of job-hunting now. lol.

have to end here cause i'm late for gym with the guys!

2011-11-13T23:54:00.002+08:00

发现自己从没用华语blog过，所以今天决定试试看，看自己的华文还okay吗。
今早看了“那些年，我们一起追的女孩。”
好怀念哦，真的好怀念中学地时候。
转眼，发觉自己都老了，应该说，长大了。
对于过去在乎的事，似乎也应为时间的漂流，都慢慢忘的七七八八了。
是件好事吗？
我还不懂，真的还不懂。
回忆啊，你真会作弄人。
或许我也得和戏里男足脚的结局一样，
默默的祝福我自己的沈佳宜。

那些年错过的大雨
那些年错过的爱情
好想拥抱你
拥抱错过的勇气
曾经想征服全世界
到最后回首才发现
这世界滴滴点点全部都是你

那些年错过的大雨
那些年错过的爱情
好想告诉你
告诉你我没有忘记
那天晚上满天星星
平行时空下的约定
再一次相遇我会紧紧抱著你
紧紧抱著你

2011-09-21T03:59:00.002+08:00

i am sad that i have to come back home from taiwan, but i had a great time, met new friends and had tons of new experiences. for all that, i'm really thankful.

special thanks to xian xian, dou zi and ah tu for being such wonderful host, ethel and her mum (which by far, is the coolest mother i've met), and most importantly my 5 other traveling companion.

now, i'll have to catch up with schoolwork and im 2 hours away from booking in.
hello reality.

2011-08-01T00:37:00.001+08:00

its been a good week, but today is a horrible day.

2011-07-26T01:24:00.000+08:00

there's no more milk in the fridge.

2011-05-11T02:23:00.003+08:00

will need plenty of luck tomorrow.

2011-04-05T03:37:00.002+08:00

i read through my archive of emails today. as i read and recall the incidents at the same time, i realised how foolish i was. how things were so apparent and yet i failed to detect anything. theres so many friendships that i, unknowingly, threw away. then again its parts and parcels of life yes? i've actually grown and changed so much. am not saying its for the better though.

2011-04-02T22:35:00.004+08:00

family times. its always good to see everyone coming together for our grandparents. chris medina new song is insanely touching. I hope his love for her is genuine. I'm still very worried about my future. my first post on my crappy smart phone.

2011-03-30T00:08:00.002+08:00

there must be some point where most of us come to realise that, you know, maybe i should give up my dreams of a fast car, nice house, trophy wife, huge salary that sort of wants. after a week of researching (and alot of soul-searching) about my studies, jobs prospect etc etc. my future looks real bleak. oh dear, feels like its about time to concede defeat to reality. also, you cannot believe how unlucky/ill-fated i am, even on my birthday! honestly, i cannot believe it myself too. why am i always running into troubles!? sigh.

2011-03-18T04:05:00.002+08:00

its been exactly a week after the course.
the nightmare pt,
the long grueling hours spent on reports,
the tedious weekends spent on reconnaissance,
the many sleepless nights we had to endure.
its all over, we managed to see through those difficult times. ((:

life, in army, is back to the way we love it most.
we had our first cohesion on east coast at monday.
our guest of honour (unplanned), is someone with real significance. lol.
poker session with my fellow soldiers at chen chao's place,
where we happily ripped him off 2 tubs of ben & jerry's ice cream.
oh, i must not fail to mention about jijun's extreme fear when she got news that i was going over to her place. HAHAHAHA!

alright its already half-past 4 in the morning,
and i've got heaps of personal administration to settle.
later people.

2011-02-19T22:16:00.003+08:00

weiliang: "body shag, mind lagi(even more) shag!"
this is so much i can reveal.

last weekend, 3 more days to liberty.
tell the world i'm coming home. ((:

2011-02-09T22:37:00.001+08:00

sometimes two hearts just cant dance at the same beat.

tonight, i can write the saddest lines.

2011-02-06T04:28:00.003+08:00

its almost time to start packing up the holiday mood and face LIFE!
i know everybody is dreading for monday to come, be it because of school, army or work.
its just really daunting to get back to where you left off.
(especially when its something as unpleasant as army!)
thankfully, i did enjoy my week!

had to report to duty early in the morning.
didnt help with the fact that i only got home 5 in the morning the day before.
i was dragging my drained out body to meet the duty specialist and sergeant steve was already sitting by the corridor waiting for me. we talk about different forms of martial art, different club and then he gave me simple training about boxing, told me to practice it diligently. he then bought me macdonald breakfast, which i havent had for so long thus making my day a really good one. good food brings good mood, even though its junk food.

met a bunch of smart (literally smart) people at one of shermain's classmate's place.
grinning at the man u supporters as we watch man u lost to wolves. ((:

have to face doom-week with courage tomorrow. fuck.

2011-02-04T18:41:00.002+08:00

chinese new year is actually a good break for me.
i get plenty of sleep and no work at all, took me so long to realise.

this new year, we had dinner that came closest to a reunion dinner. did the usual custom with the guys, fought through the crowded chinatown to buy our favourite jellys!

while everyone was busy visiting on the first day, i was out in the sun, playing cricket with the foreign domestic workers. hahaha. i'm surprise at how interesting it can be! you see one chinese guy sticking out in a large pool of indians, sri langkans and bangladesh, running around the field and screaming for ball. sport, you see, gather people together and even though i know nuts about cricket, i still got a standing ovation from my all my new friends!

its really amazing to see how kids grow so fast. it feels as if it was just last year when i was carrying my little nephew around and my little niece is still so small in the cradle, now he is like a little devil running around and she can already speak and looking pretty, posing for the camera.

i had actually visited shermain's place every first day of new year since i know her. it use to be the draw of gambling but now, its because i actually got nothing to do, so we'll just hang. lol.

my father has this bad habit, when he see the food he like, he cannot help but to finish every single bit of it. he said it was a habit he cultivated as a kid, if he see my grandma cook something he like, he'll finish only that dish he like, not leaving anything for the family. till now, when he buy those delicious new year food back, he will finish all of them, even though he know its going to make him sick and him, doing his best effort to refrain from eating.

come to think of it, isnt most of us like that, we make mistake that we know right from the start,
we cannot be bothered with consequences, what matter is to live for the moment. hahaha maybe its just me, or maybe, blame it on the genes. ((:

happy chinese new year folks.

2011-01-26T00:19:00.002+08:00

24th of January is...
christie's 22nd and jaeden's ice cream shop grand opening!

congratulation jae! i will drop by to try the waffle as soon as i'm done with my ops.
it better be as good as you claim it to be! ((:

you wouldnt believe that christie is conversing with me in chinese nowadays! lol
i hope you had a splendid celebration and i cant wait to see you come february.

2011-01-10T03:14:00.002+08:00

"At some point, you have to make a decision. Boundaries dont keep other people out. They fence you in. Life is messy. That's how we're made. So, you can waste your time drawing lines. Or you can live your life crossing them. But there are some lines... that are way to dangerous to cross."

2011-01-02T22:31:00.002+08:00

the holidays are almost over, what comes after tomorrow will be one more year of whining and sulking before thie whole army chapter reach its closure! honestly, i cant fucking wait! lol.

met almost everybody that were important to me throughout the new year,
all except my 4e2-ians. i'm truly apologetic, i will organise something and make up for this.
CONFIRM!
i even bump into two amazing lost lost girl friends. vanessa chong who took such great care of me in vietnam and meili (i met here at 3something in the morning at johor! whats the fucking odds!) who is like an older sister i never had.

i must say, countdown to 2011 was unexpectedly good. haha i was actually at a muslim party near some mosque and according to jiahao, that rooftop we're hanging out at truly define the word 'lepak'. rush over to ang's place to meet clara and her gang for the count down, lost the game and had to do that kanina wii dance. met up with jiahao again at east coast and coincidentally leonard and the rest was there as well, so its one big noisy party at carl's.

lost a couple of dollars in poker at bryan's place with leonard and the guys, before a long gruelling ride via second link to johor with jiahao and my fellow bikers. i'm still very upset over the fact that my bike could barely hit 200km/hr and i think i'm getting old, the wind was really nerve-wrecking and my back ache so much when i got home.

oh! before i forget, thank you felicia for showing cain and myself to bar savanh.
if you like cosy places and accoustic music and most important meet nice people,
you should definitely go to that place!
had so much fun with all the people we met there and then.

last but not least,
happy birthday yan and to the rest, happy christmas and a jolly new year. ((:

2010-12-27T23:28:00.002+08:00

i watch a supposingly joyous month turn ugly.
yes there's still some happy occassions to cheer about, like barely showing up in camp for the whole month and the awesome trip to manila.

BUT! (YES THE BIG BUT!)

other then smashing my little toe due to some ill-fated luck and had the poolside party downgraded to a steamboat. i also had to reschedule my flight (which cost a bomb), be back in camp physically tomorrow just to check whether the paperwork for my leave is done (which if it is, means wasting half of the day leave)!
the latter two tragedies, happened, solely because of this ONE asshole(no better word for it)!

have you ever met a person that almost never gave you a piece of good news before?
that when he announce or say something, you can be sure that its something bad?
meet *!@&. (i'm trying to be nice here so as to not reveal his name!)
i tried to be nice to him when the whole platoon want to murder him,
everytime the guys screamed or threatened to kill him, i stopped them!
yet, he's giving me shit now. how fucking lame!
i have this theory that maybe some people are ostrocise for a reason.
maybe they are really nasty people, i mean most people wouldnt hate some other for fun right?
true, there are genuine innocent people that are mock at because of how they look or that they lack certain social skill, this people dont deserve that shit.
then there is people like *!@& who shouldnt deserve any sympathy! none at all!
he is a classic example of my theory!

let me clear, i dont expect you all to understand my point or theory or whatsoever.
because its quite possible that i'll let this go after ranting it out here.
i'll most probably still try to be nice to him and stopped people from murdering him.
not that i'm a nice person, i just find it harder to hate and be mean to someone!
see thats why i dont expect you to understand anything! lol.

2010-12-21T01:42:00.003+08:00

mabuhay!

this trip to manila is filled with so many ups and downs.
literally one good news follow by one bad news and the cycle repeats.
still, it was a good experience.
no doubt its an expensive one, but money my friend, can be earn back.

the best part of the trip is to meet so many great people.
people that can be such great host even though they can exploit you instead.
people that let you believe that there's still amazing people out there.
for that, marie, excel and jean michael i cannot thank you guys enough.
last but not least, thank you shermain for being such an awesome travel bud!

excel: dont worry about paying more then you should for taxi.
marie said she will punch the driver if he dont go by meter.

2010-12-10T00:37:00.002+08:00

today.

last year this time, i'm preparing myself for army.
next year this time, i'll be completing my national service.
today i'm officially an one year soldier!

today i've also decided to learn something.
something that i should have started learning years ago.
yes, i will learn how to cook prawn noodle.

so lets hope today will be a good day. ((:

2010-12-02T00:22:00.001+08:00

trauma. pain. stitches.

2010-11-13T06:37:00.002+08:00

the guys and myself, we love to fantasize about being a billionaire ourself.
house-warming at sentosa, lamborghini and SNSD...
dude, i swear we can harp on it all day!
but, at the end of the day, a dream is and will always be just a dream.
we learnt to face it and gradually accepted it.

now, when i finish watching social network five minutes ago,
i cannot understand how they became so successful,
why is it that their ideas always work out?
i realise we are bounded by our fears,
we have all settled down with the fact that its easier to be unsuccesful,
and yes, the worst thing, most of us are able to live with it.

2010-10-29T20:27:00.002+08:00

when i flip the papers or magazines, i'm bound to come across some tragic news.
makes one wonder is it because the editor knew readers like sad stories,
or is it plainly because there's too many suffering going around.
obviously i'm hoping its the former one,
maybe not because they knew readers like such stories,
maybe they're trying to raise awareness.
then again, people might be aware, but are they helping?
rather, are you helping? cause i'm definitely not.
where're those superheroes that are suppose to save them?
i need to meet them so i can be a superhero myself.

2010-09-26T23:02:00.002+08:00

i really really wanted to blog down my activities in army,
my life as a military policeman, but, we're not allowed to.
however, i can tell you that i got silver for my ippt.
i can tell you that i'm learning a cool form of martial art.
i can tell you that i finally got my defensive riding.
i can tell you that this two weeks of ops at some wharves is tiring.
i can tell you that i'm having alot of instant coffee and cup noodles there.
i can tell you that i miss out on alot of activities with the guys. )):
yes, thats as much as i can share with you.

besides army, rest of the time is spent helping out at dad's shop.
tiring but really fruitful, picking up alot, great learning platform.
pretty much about it.
gotta go meet patrick and uxen so that i can get more work done. nice~

2010-07-06T23:06:00.002+08:00

its been quite a while since i last register a post.
actually my dad should take the blame as he hogs up the computer 24/7,
i barely have enough time to finish my japanese drama, much less to blog.

apparently i'm not allowed to blog about army related stuff,
but to sum it up while you people are enjoying your saturdays,
you should really leave me out of your plan.
seriously, dont even let me know anything about your saturday activities.

besides that, there's actually nothing interesting going on.
dont worry, i'll be sure to blog down if there's any.
till then, we'll all just need to be a little patient.

2010-07-04T03:42:00.002+08:00

2nd July. the happiest night of my life!
correction, happiest night...since awhile ;)

I got to talk for 6-7 hours straight!!
yes, also, I finally learnt how to play the string game.
Dexterity is aint no forte of mine I must say.
sometimes I do wonder the feasibility of talking for such a long period of time..
but well, it is rather apparent that it actually is.
and to the other person's credit, there was no dosing off at all this time!

That also means that I had no sleep at all before heading down for.... erm.. some army shyt till 11pm the next day!
which didnt affect me because it was saturday, the time to charge up on normal social contact before I get stuck back in with the guy who enthusiastically yells into my ear and the funny guy who believes he reads jap.

lastly,
though now sitting on the top of my thinker like a cap,
boy I have hair!

2010-04-24T02:43:00.002+08:00

there is this particular village in india where you'll see a herd of female cows.
female cows that were no longer capable of reproducing or produce milk.
this village is what people called the widow village.

this travel show was airing on tv and just moment before i was about to leave house,
it caught my attention, force me to sit down and watch for a good 15 minutes.
i ought to be blogging about my life in MP, but this, the detail of the show,
i want to blog it down, above anything else.

in india, its not difficult to differentiate the widow apart from the other females.
they're not allowed to wear clothing that has fanciful colors,
which mean most of the female in pale yellow or sandbag color clothing are possibly widow.
widows are considered unlucky in the traditional society and often exile to widow village.
there, they sleep in pair, in a small cell.
a small cell which didnt have a huge wardrobe, nail polish, perfume etc.
nothing of those basic necessities that most girls have in their room.
everyday they wake up to chant. they dont recite relic or anything like that,
all they chant is their god's name, hoping that their god wouldnt forget them.
one session could easily last for 3 hours, then again they got nothing else to do anyway.
widows are socially outcast which mean its almost impossible for them to get a job.
they had to resort to begging or worst, betray their own body.
the village chanting session is also a chance for them to get donation,
a meager 2.50 rupee a day, not even 10 cent if convert to our currency.

the most heart wrenching part is when they showed interview of the widow.
i'll quote what one of them said,
"i was living with my son for awhile after my husband died, then he find me
too much of a burden and threw me out. till date, i still miss them dearly, but i know,
to them i'm long dead."

arranged marriage is still a common practice in india nowadays,
the young still marry the old and therefore you'll find women as young as 19 in the village.
this young women who had to spent the rest of their life at the village.

so we all talk about love time to time.
but seriously, love? fuck love. who's there to love them?

2010-04-12T01:03:00.003+08:00

yes, i'd finally pop-ed.
in case your army lingo isn't up to standard, pop actually meant pass out.
no more painstaking ferry ride to tekong, no more!
posting will be out on friday, something that worries all of us.
don't know if its actually a good idea to finally graduate,
as much as i dislike those maggots that constantly yell at us,
my section mates and myself had actually bonded so much.
like what cain said, "we're like a family now."

whenever i complain about my inability to find a girlfriend,
people around me always gave me the same reply,
"its not that you cannot find, is you dont want!"
its repeated so many times that i need to sought an explanation to that.
first and foremost, there really isn't any potential targets now.
then again, i think i deserve that right one, she needs to save me.
how do you fall in love when you doubt love. how?
its painful to know that i'm no longer honest, no longer truthful.
crap. i'm drowning in my own explanation.

emo talk aside, i should be happy now. cause i dont have to book in. ((:

2010-03-28T22:50:00.003+08:00

so close to finishing bmt, so close i'm telling you!
hopefully i can get into provost, fulfill my military police ambition,
my one and only birthday present i received on the day itself. sigh.

many thanks to all those who sent their well wishes,
and russell teo who got me something (though i havent receive it!).
OH! also, an apple pie from uxen and a pack of cigarette from junlong.
fuck almost forgotten i got a vanilla latte from cain!
thats 4 present already! excluding the high fever i get as well.
thank you, thank you all. ((:

one by one, maggots like junlong and wenkai are getting lucky.
leaving me to wonder why the best man on earth is still on drought.
sigh. sigh. sigh.
nobody is in for any trip during my block leave,
looks like i'm going to be stuck in singapore for a long time.
the thought itself is enough to kill me.

i need a good book. anyone?

2010-03-20T15:45:00.002+08:00

you know i could had blog a whole great deal about field camp or sit test,
but maybe its over and done with i didnt feel like dedicating a whole post to it.
in short, the life changing field camp is INDEED life changing.
the long march there, digging your shellscrape, sleeping in it,
my buddy unexpected situation, plenty of punishment, no light,
no shower, no ipod... the list can actually run for more but i'll stop here.

oh, regarding my buddy's situation,
i could blog a great deal, but i guess i'll sum it up with one sentence,
depression is probably more like dissatifaction.

there's probably a growing list of people that hated watson now,
after christie finally sorted everything out.
though i probably lose more then gain more in this situation,
lucky me that people's judgement dont mean so much to me.

i wanted to blog more but i really need a nap now.

2010-02-27T17:14:00.002+08:00

here i am, 30 minutes before i leave home for hell.
we only got out this morning and have to book in now for field camp.
5 days of no shower, no phone, no ipod and extreme torture awaits me.
they say the best way to survive is to look forward to the end,
when you finally get to book out and meet your family,
penultimately, your love one.
now, you see the main issue, i dont have that special someone waiting for me,
i have at best a picture on my locker which give me nightmare time to time,
but i'm not gonna sulk, i'm gonna take those steps that bring me home.
cause i know, every single step i take, is a step closer to home.

2010-02-13T21:25:00.002+08:00

while everyone is busy catching up with their family members,
busy eating the spread that is on the table,
busy drinking cans after cans of beers,
soaking in the chinese new year spirit,
i'm sleeping soundly in my room.
dont get me wrong, i'm not complaining, in fact i like it better this way.
i'm glad my family are not required to conform to all these formalities.

last minute shopping with shermain just now.
not much of a shopping actually,
i think her ulterior motive was to make me help her pick out a gift for rodney.
i was so generous to let her buy my favourite fred perry's polo design la.
pop by this shop "asylum", the things they sell are so simple yet interesting.
i cant really explain, you have to see it for yourself.

actually, i'm just typing, i'm so tired i cant even form sentences properly,
i'm probably just making mental notes, gosh! my mind is fuck,
my head is screaming for me to sleep, but i just woke up from a 2 hours nap.
oh fuck what am i typing!

2010-01-10T14:03:00.003+08:00

apparently the model answer doesnt apply to us, at least not to me.
i really wanted to come clean to someone, anyone.
however, truth is, there's no one.

2009-12-31T19:23:00.002+08:00

today mark the last day of '09.
a day i believe, forces many people to reflect upon this past year.
good or bad, we all had live through this eventful year.
all we could do is to hope for a better year ahead.

i personally felt that i had a bad '09.
maybe i'm just sore because i havent found a girlfriend. lol.
well, least i met great people and been to great places.
now i feel fortunate. ((:

taking into account the bad economy,
the people suffering from disaster, be it natural or man-made,
i hope it will take a change for the better.
yes, this is a little out of my league but i really wanted to speak my mind.

may everyone have a fabulous year ahead,
and the world to be a better place tomorrow.

2009-12-06T03:06:00.003+08:00

today is the beginning of a new phase in my life.
probably the most hated one, at least we hate it at the start.
i'm nervous and a tad bit excited.
weird!? i know, i'm probably the only person not dreading about NS!
thank you all my lovely friends for all the well wishes and cards.
i really really really appreciate it.

now... lets all wait for christmas eve.

2009-12-06T03:06:00.002+08:00

this is my last weekend before enlistment.
i'm so please to proclaim it as a hell of a weekend!
however, by that, i didnt mean that my week was all good, more like interesting.
firstly, whats the odd of hitting your friend's sister in a club?
as though its not complex enough, i just so happen to know the boyfriend as well.
but i swear i couldnt recognize her until she told me her sister's name.
argh! seriously, whats the chances la.

4e2-ians did an awesome job to commemorate my last weekend. ((:
we had steamboat and caught that bullshit twilight: new moon.
being ever so sweet, i had an "enlistment letter" hand-made by them.

my throat is hurting and i'm jaded.
its like i'm falling ill. damn it.
i ought to get some rest.
night world.

2009-12-02T03:15:00.002+08:00

now, how do i start from here...
today i unlock my blog.
not that many people are reading it, maybe none.
but theres a possibility that someone might chance by and be glad to find out whats going on in my life.
thus, i'll unlock it and blog for that someone.

the big news is definitely about my enlistment.
i'll be enlisting on 11th december '09.
a new phase of life.
i hope it all turns out good.

perth was great.
boring at night, but i still love it.
i must mention this bakery at guildford town.
for those who didnt know, guildford is actually the birthplace of the late heath ledger.
i was actually there in search for a memorial for him or something.
but what i only manage to find was guildford town bakery.
no fanciful decoration, just good latte and delicious bun/cakes/pies.
ask me for pictures and ask me to describe, i'll be happy to tell you.
big thank you for cherrilyn and veronica for bringing me around.
much much love. ((:

i recently fulfill something that i really wanted to do for quite awhile - tennis.
i've been faithfully picking up tennis from dingjie twice a week.
nothing intense, but i sure had alot of fun with dingjie and niaodan.

russell and leonard had both gone into a relationship recently.
leaving me to wonder why am i the only one in the MP group that didnt get lucky!
why me! why me! why meeeeeeeeeee! TA MA DE!
however,
the most comforting thing is,
with friends like mine, who need girlfriend!

2009-10-15T05:55:00.003+08:00

perth - 21st october 2009.
would i still go if i knew beforehand that things would get ugly?
i need to perk myself up for the trip.

2009-10-04T03:26:00.003+08:00

its been so long yes.
i had finally graduated.
i went to phuket.
i'm bored.

2009-08-17T04:39:00.004+08:00

i bet everyone felt this before, but i'm seriously bored.
of course not literally, i do have plenty of different cliques to hang out with,
i do have my major project to complete but something is just not right.
actually, its probably because i dont have someone to share my joy with.
having no one to confide into, sucks. big time.

have you ever felt like you're not learning anything new, anything interesting?
yes, thats probably because everything is becoming a routine.
I hate that. I need to feel, enjoy, meet something/someone new time to time.
that should explain why i'm flipping through all those magazines i got from shunlong.

now, all i hope for is that i can graduate by this week and enjoy my post graduation.

2009-07-30T07:02:00.000+08:00

Its been more then a month since i last posted something.
believe it or not, i've been putting effort in my work recently.
not enough to pass mp though.
i hate this part whereby its becoming a routine,
i hand in work, lecturer dont like it, give me extension.
SERIOUSLY, this can really torture you!

Time not studying had been time spent hanging out with shermain.
we hang out like almost every other day, we just sat and talk.
know what, i think it must be tough of her to hear me whine all night. lol.

Dinner with Jaeden, watch slumdogs at my place.
met up with xavier.
did well for sociology presentation.

i'm too lazy to form sentences and narrate out the situation.
yes, i need to sleep NOW!

2009-06-26T07:03:00.002+08:00

becareful what you wish for, cause you just might get it all.
i've always try to rediscover the feeling of falling in love.
Not that i never fell for siwei or jaeden,
more like, when i was trying to get them to be interested with me.

the attempt to hook up with huiling failed miserably.
worst thing, i cant get her out of my mind now.

i cant seem to be putting my thoughts into words.
sickening.

2009-06-22T01:55:00.002+08:00

i cant believed i quarrelled with my father on father's day.
i'm feeling terribly guilty now.
it makes me wonder if i ever really do my parent proud before.
what can they boast about me to their friends?
nothing, i seriously cannot think of anything for them to about their son.

on a brighter note, the 2 weeks break was a blast.
i had cooking session with pin and ken.
somehow, our curry chicken was edible.
finally got a taste of baking cookie with sharmin, yonglin and uxen.
attended henghui's birthday celebration and met my beloved primary school friends.
attended jere's 21st!
quite a number of ktv session with leonard, dingjie and niaodan
club with leonard and dingjie
roller blading with shermain and co.
caught denzel's new show with shermain and co.
most significantly, dota almost every fucking day!
that also means, no mp, no dmpf... NO WORK DONE!

with that say, i'm signing off here.
why? DOTA OF COURSE!
i wonder what will huiling reply in the morning.
something sweet i hope, but there's a high chances she wont reply at all. boo.

p.s. happy father's day

2009-05-28T02:09:00.002+08:00

i cant believe how long i've kept myself awake!
i barely slept for 4 hours spread evenly throughout 36 hours.
statistically, it meant that an hour of sleep kept me going for 9 hours.
its such an achievement, i'm someone that needs 10 hours of sleep EVERYDAY!

xavier's belated birthday celebration ended up in tantockseng hospital.
that loser apparently contracted food poisoning.
hahaha what a memorable celebration!

went to sentosa with my dmpf's groumate.
i dont want to hurt their feeling, but i think its a waste of money and time.
whatever, not like i got much say.
thankfully, they're quite nice people and i'm getting along with them.

i've been hanging out quite abit with my 4e2-ians.
gosh! i swear they're so much fun!
every time we meet confirm got something interesting!
check my facebook out for all the videos and pictures.
movie, supper, htht, minds cafe... i love it all!

right, i'm so tired actually, but a part of me want to stay up to watch soccer.
barcelona can slaughter manchester united tonight. YAY!
messi will dazzle and punk the shit out of those man united faggots.

p.s. gotten huiling's number. ((:

2009-05-19T01:48:00.002+08:00

eventful week i must say.
lesson 1: never talk on the phone and drive at the same time.
i met with my first car accident after just 2 months.
thankfully, i only bang into her bumper at a really low speed.
lianne, the other party, is a really nice woman.
she wasnt picky and rude, the whole incident was settled swiftly.

being a sociology student (even though its cds),
i agree with the fact that we usually meet/talk to people which are similar to ourself.
the term is demographic.
i like the fact that i met lianne, she's a mum with 2 children, journalist and still hot!
lol.
no, its not because she's hot thats why i'm glad i met her.
its more like, we wouldnt have spoke if we cross each other on the streets,
incidents like this bring people that you never expect into your life.
you get my drift...

4e2 class chalet was ass-kicking.
i had so so so much fun.
we merely did what others do at their chalet,
but the company was so awesome that everything we did became so awesome!
now, we're all complaining we had the oom-oom-chaki syndrome!
the syndrome where we miss being in the chalet so much! LOL
trust my smart classmate to come up with such lame stuff.

sad news on friday.
i freaked out when i learn about the death of patrick's father.
kept him company for most of the night, thats the least i could do.

i was involve in a crazy commotion at daddy's noodle stall.
shant go into details, but the incident left me questioning myself.

high-tea with taymin, alfred and lin today.
the company make up for that lousy cafe. LOL
caught angels & demons after that,
and i borrowed a book from the national library,
my first since i was a primary school kid. ((:

shucks i cant be bothered to end nicely.
signing off.

2009-05-05T03:44:00.002+08:00

you see, this place is actually for me to vent my anger.
now that i got nothing troubling me, i find myself with nothing to blog.
question. what does people expect when they read your blog?
juicy gossip?
what about blog like mine, that tell you what i did for the day?
seriously, i wouldnt want to read a blog that is like mine.

if you havent realise, as you're reading this, you're just wasting your time.
ironically, i'm wasting my time typing this entry.

shit.

night.

2009-04-25T03:35:00.002+08:00

my dad can seriously splurge!
all those machines and now a new tv.
worst thing is, the tv is quite dissapointing.
yes, its sleek and in gorgeous black but the resolution is bad.
the old one seems to pawn the new one big time in term of that.
*shrugs

i doubt i mention that i had a cooking session at pin's place 2 weeks ago.
hahaha my signature soup was a disaster! LOL
thankfully, pin didnt manage to churn out his longwinded name sorbet.
my steak was good though, at least i like it.
it was great fun, particularly with pin and ken.
the only spoiler was the fucking parking ticket.

school finally started.
i use the word finally because i've been wasting my holiday.
i really mean literally wasting it, because i dont have a job!
oh well, hog's still havent pay me and i swear its killing me.
on a brighter note, timetable is slacker then any before.
an hour session on tuesday and a full day lessons on wednesday.
hahaha i bet you can't really find a better timetable. *smirk

xavier's telling me that he wanted to sign on,
take the money and invest in me to start a business.
that being say,
i know i want to start a business,
i know i want to own a restaurant,
but the fear of responsibility is crippling me down.
i guess that determine whether you'll be a successful businessman.

all this big talk, big ambition, will they ever fall out nicely?

2009-04-04T16:28:00.003+08:00

i had an awesome 21st!
okay, let me recall...

fellow 4e2-ians help celebrated the march babies at fish and co.
i always had so much fun with them.
BECAUSE THEY ARE TOO GOOD TO MESS AROUND!
food is shitty because the only 2 things that suits me are vegetarian food.
i end up eating pasta with mushrooms and peanuts!
cost me 15 bucks somemore, what a scam!
pictures speaks a thousand words!
present number 1: big big birthday card

house party at hoeann's "tuition centre"
planned by my lovely primary school classmates,
namely henghuei, sandy, hoeann, ken, yunjing, chin wai, guiping.
good effort in trying to surprise me with the birthday cake,
ken was hiding in a dark corner of a room,
but he didnt realise that i could see him from the window,
and he thought the window was tinted. LOL
"ta kan bu dao wo right!?" HAHAHAHAHA!
present number 2: ralph lauren shirt.

night safari with jane.
walk and walk and walk
but it was a cool experience.
present number 3: zippo lighter

my ever so sweet clara and yunfan.
we dont meet regularly but tian xin clara always plan a surprise party for me.
however stupid yuencheng totally spoil the surprise for me.
nevertheless, it was still really sweet to know that they remembered
dinner at aston's with alicia, clara, yunfan and yuencheng.
caught streetfigher after dinner,
i was telling myself that i'll never watch streetfighter and dragonball,
end up i watch both of them. argh!
present number 4: awfully chocolate cake

dinner with my homies at mykii
super last minute planning,
i woke up in the noon, went online and desperately look for a restaurant.
called everyone up, thank god most of them showed up!
thank you jiahao, jeremy, eddie, ben, yaoli, yuzhuang,
patrick, xavier, wenkai and surprise surprise JAEDEN!
was thinking of sentosa before we back out and went to east coast.
xavier came up with this stupid idea to barbeque at 3am!
we shop for sausages, hams, breads, charcoal, butter and charcoal etc.
totally random, totally awesome! ((:
the down side is, we all laosai the next day! hahahaha!
present number 5: agnes b t-shirt
present number 6: 10 packs of ciggarettes

free movie from shawn(gc) after he shockingly discover that its my birthday
rachel, sean, zijie was there for the movie as well.
though they didnt intend to hang because of my birthday,
i'm contented with the free tickets.
car stalled halfway and the engine never roar back to life.
poor rachel had to go through all this trouble with me.
it wasnt too bad afterall as we stayed up all night reminisicing bout old times.

belated birthday dinner at sushi tei with gabriel, yuencheng and fabian.
had ice cream at dempsey after that.
so much laughter at sushi tei because of that waiteress! haha
"i expected the ice-cream to be less then 10! FUCK!" says who huh, yc? LOL

belated birthday dinner part II with safetypin and ken.
ken fucking got a $100 taka voucher whereas i only got free dinner!
AND i'm still so kind to order the cheapest steak at chicago's.
dessert at 2am dessert bar after that and i'm glad they like my recommendation.
we've plan for a cooking session on the 17th and i'm psyched!
funny incident was when i found a bug in my car,
you see 3 big guys screaming in the car along holland village that stretch. LOL

love sent all the way from melbourne
present number 7: nice berms and shirts from eunice.

"david copperfield" storybooks from siwei and a really nice card.
i still have difficulty reading the book,
i wonder how did i complete it when i was in primary 2! HAHAHA
present number 8: storybook

my lifelong friend got me a really pricey watch.
actually i force him to get me a present, but i didnt know he'll splurge
i just love him laaaaaa!
present number 9: citizen watch

i so so love my friends laaaaaaaa!
big thank you to all you lovely 'assholes'!

2009-03-16T03:05:00.002+08:00

just when i thought all the feelings are fading away,
here i am, thinking about siwei.
something's wrong, but i dont know what, there isnt a clue.
i'm worried.
i know i shouldnt be.
but i'm seriously sick worried.

jane and i are making significant improvement.
we're starting out in a similar frame as jaeden and myself.
whereby i dont love her as much, i just need the company.
it scares me.
i'm afraid to let her down.

i thought about jaeden quite abit recently.
happy times with her keep popping out in my head.
i'm guessing, i miss her.
i fall under the category where people always say,
you only learn to treasure when you lose it, but its all too late.
god, i cant believe i actually let that happen to me.
we havent been talking for ages.
i'm afraid it will be forever.
how now?

christie is probably jumping mad at me.
i wouldnt say its my fault, but i understand if she's upset.
i would be.

these women that matters, what have i done to them?

2009-03-06T02:31:00.002+08:00

its official.
the trip to states is cancelled.
how am i suppose to tell christie that i'm not going anymore?
how am i suppose to dissapoint her again?

xavier and i finally got our car.
its a beat up trashy car, but i love it nevertheless.
so pricey to own a car, no wonder dad refuse to buy one.

had been hanging out with jane for quite a bit.
we're rather close, but whats next?
i dont have a good feeling about us being together,
but it seems rather impossible to just hang out like normal.

i still dont know where S and myself stand.
i got a goodnight message from her everynight.
its sweet. i love it.
but, what am i suppose to do?

i need directions. badly.

2009-02-19T13:27:00.003+08:00

I finally got through SWEN.
even by the means of copying during exam,
i swear i was left with no choice, i had to pass.

valentine day was better then expected.
no, its not that i found someone to confess to.
i merely hang out with eddie, vincent and chanel in town.
afterwhich, i met jane for movie in north point.

i've finally made up my mind to go to the US trip.
yes, in a way, my decision is still base on S.
christie will meet up with me in san franciso,
so i'm thinking maybe she can help me move on a little.

dinner with eunice on tueday night.
its been almost years since we catch up.
its people like eunice that will took initiative to meet me,
that makes me feel appreciated.
anyway, the talk was good, i got a clearer view somehow.

2009-02-04T02:18:00.003+08:00

i had a super duper uber busy week!
there is always this to do and there to go,
thankfully, everything i did, i enjoyed it. ((:

it all started on friday, where i met up kishore, fabian and gabriel for dinner.
god knows when was the last time i saw fab la!
for a period, i was really close to fab, then poof, we didnt contact for years.
surprisingly there was no awkwardness, its still fun to have dinner with them,
LIKE REALLY REALLY FUN, something just dont change that easily! hahaha

visited mrs joanne tan the following day.
i dont feel good with S around, but i'm just glad it didnt affect me much.
i'm happy to see that mrs tan is recovering well,
though i dont exactly know the detail because i dont have time alone with her.
also, the run-around with mrs tan's kids was great!

i've heard alot about cherrilyn, seen her once and had little conversation with her.
all that change when i met her for coffee on sunday.
we held conversation like adults, talking about the market and world issues.
the funny thing is, i anticipate awkwardness but there was none.
we chatted as if we met each other on regular basis.
she gave me the havaianas that i wanted!
love that was sent all the way from australia! HAHA!
cher really make me feel appreciated and now she feels like an older sister to me.

Jane is my new study buddy in school.
its so funny how we actually became so close.
few months ago, we were nothing but classmates by name.
now, i stay back with her in school most days to catch up on my work.
apparently, i'm her eye-candy! weeeeee~ i'm deeply honoured!

lunch at IKEA with alicia, shuyin and zul.
manage to eat my much awaited CHICKEN LEG!
its really good shit i swear! doubt me? ask alicia yourself!

fork out some time to send cherrilyn off.
it was really awkward, but i just wanted her to know that she's important.

did my bit as a friend, accompanied jacq at the hospital for consecutive 2 nights.
jacq's brother is suffering from some abnormalities,
coupled by her relationship problems and schoolwork, its wearing her down.
i hope i did enough to cheer her up, even if its just for that few hours.

psssss. i just realised that i didnt blog anything about chinese new year!
i'll try to do it in the next post!
ciao.

2009-01-23T04:24:00.003+08:00

i once thought i'll never had to private my blog.
but here i am, allowing only myself to read it.
as much friends as i have, i can only rant here.
this holiday was so fucking miserable, no one knew.
i love coffee, but i dont really dare to drink it.
at first i thought i'm sick of caffeine,
but its not,
i'm just afraid that coffee will only cause my night to be longer.

2009-01-19T01:31:00.002+08:00

friends.

its funny how we drift in and out of cliques.
how necessary it is to 'move on'.
there were no arguments within my primary school best friends,
like wise my secondary school best friend etc...
we just didnt call each other for 1 day, then 2... then forever.
i'm not sulking over past friendship, wondering how it could be made better.
the sad part is, due to this inevitable nature of 'moving on',
i see myself losing friends thats around me.

i have lost some, i have gained some.
i suppose everybody needs closure.

2009-01-02T02:41:00.002+08:00

first post for '09.
i spent my eve and new year day working at hog's.
dont tell me to get a life, cause that is not an option.
thanks to shawn brilliant idea of having a countdown party in the restaurant,
which sadly is a big success judging from the crowd turnout,
which also mean that i got to work like a cow.
at the stroke of midnight, when everybody is cheering and shouting,
i was pouring erdinger beer for customer!
the post party mess was horrendous, we close at 1am, clean up till 4am.
free macdonald from shawn and blackjack till dawn.
it was really cosy to sit around with all my colleagues and eat,
even if its macdonald, it tasted like food from les amis. LOL!
i actually felt good for the first time over this past weeks.
hog's is like my getaway now, getaway to make me busy, to distract myself.

anyhow, plenty of things to do tomorrow.
i wish all to have a great '09 ahead!

2008-12-28T01:49:00.002+08:00

merry christmas everyone.

have you ever drop money into the salvation box before?
i was listening to this interview via post secret,
it kind of shook me to know that how much the donation mean to people.
of course i'm talking about people in need.
i never understood why christmas is about giving and sharing.
i think i do now.
maybe i should help out in the salvation army next christmas.
maybe this could save me from having screwed up christmas.

i felt so bad to my friends this christmas.
they were expecting me to be so enthusiastic and i wasnt.
i even miss dinner with them and went home to eat instant noodle,
just because i couldnt stand the noises.
it'll be better next year, i assure you guys. ((:

happy holiday folks.

2008-12-20T02:26:00.003+08:00

they were right.
i shouldnt have let my emotional take over me,
i could have hold back the chip and not plunge it all in.
but... you've shown your cards and you have no idea whats in my hand.
let me tell you what then, i'm done with my cards.
the dealer can take away my card, i'll fold it.
show's over.

welcome to the game of poker.

2008-12-07T02:59:00.002+08:00

the festive month of december is here.
note that i didnt say its finally here, just here.
because time sure pass fast this year.

i'm not in the mood to celebrate, not happy enough i suppose.
plus the fact that jiahao will be away in taiwan, kind of dampen the spirit.
the guys thought that we should just do the countdown via msn, how miserable.
oh no! all my thoughts are so negative.
eunice is coming back to celebrate christmas with russ,
i hope russ can make this count, cause its really sweet of her to do that.
jiahao and yuzhuang can have a sweet christmas at taiwan as well.
i'll just wait for them to tell me their stories then. ((:

i'm so lazy, i'll just end abrutly. so here you go...

2008-11-19T15:40:00.002+08:00

you have absolutely no idea how much i hate the crazy weather.
it can be bright and sunny for a minute and threaten to rain the next minute.
everytime it rain, i get stuck with my motorbike. so not cool!

other then that, i'm loving every bit of this november.
it kickstart with eddie's birthday celebration at bali house.
we drank, we smoke, we scream and we had so much fun.
stay over at vincent's place for guitar hero
and we watch chanel sleep at the sofa while the guys take the bed. HAHA!
rewind back to bali house, i was startled when gina came up to me.
she was serving us all night and i couldn't recognise her at all.
turns out that caryn was working there as well.
its definitely awkward, but i'm delighted to see them again.

i'm working again. its still hog's breath in case you're wondering.
i actually wanted to get a new job, but as i started listing down the criteria,
theres only one place to be... hogs.
alot of new faces this time round, its giving me so much trouble to remember them.
its been almost two weeks, yet i still cannot match their name to their face. lol
no worries folk, i'll work on that!

malaysia trip yesterday!
went to refurnish the old stickers on my bike and most importantly, BIG FEAST!
the dim sum is seriously damn cheap, order like nobody business! lol
a big thank you to ben for showing us around.

theres actually so many other random nice people i know this month.
thing is, i'm having trouble recalling!
oh well, i gotta report to work. ciao!

p.s. happy twenteen to you-know-who!

2008-10-28T02:09:00.002+08:00

i'm finally beginning my life without internshit.
it was an emotional last day, but its a feeling that will definitely go away.
now, i'm back at the place where i want to be... school.
thankfully the timetable is not even half as tedious as what i thought.
i know i'm going to hate school when the assignments come pouring,
but please for now just let me indulge in this unusual feeling.

i've got a taste for the first time of how touring is gonna be like.
you really dont know how afraid i am that my bike will breakdown halfway.
i was so freaking nervous and unprepared that i miss out on my passport.
that unglam moment, its going to haunt me!
the long way up to malacca was really demanding.
riding through blazing sun, pouring rain, poor visibility, difficult position etc
i'm just really proud of my bike and myself to be able to achieve it.
its a milestone, you had to do it to understand it.

then there was the trip to kula lumpur for the moto grand prix
its my first time to a circuit and i'm falling in love with the thoughts of racing in one.
the whole event was definitely an eye-opener, lotsa babes, bikes and races.
whats more with my 2 lovely friend jiahao and junlong at my disposal.
hahahaha!

last and final trip to malysia, kulai.
the thing about kulai is that its not exactly far away,
but far enough to let you speed at 200km/hr for about 45minutes.
to top it off, we had dinner with a whole table of dishes for just S$10.
BEAT THAT!
alot of people knew about my accident,
but not many knew how terrified i am about speed after the accident.
i've not totally overcome it, but definitely enough for me to speed at malysia's freeway.
so, i reserve a special gratitude to kovin for his motivation and effort for both trips.

okay, i'm going back to watch gossip girls.
its so addictive that i'm sacrificing my sleep and risk being late for school tomorrow.
so, you know what to do... watch it.

you know you love me
xoxo
WATSON

2008-09-25T20:59:00.002+08:00

today is the first of many free nights i'm going to have from now on.
due to some dispute i had with my in-charge, i quit mcdelivery already.

anyhow its good to waste my evening, sitting in front of the tv.
i've been dying to do that.
even better with hbo screening a good show: the freedom writers.
i strongly encourage everyone to watch this.
its base on a true story, you can google them and check out their website.

i'll end off this short post with what i think the show is trying to portray.
dont judge the person beside you, everybody deserve a change.

2008-09-11T00:18:00.002+08:00

good day folks!
i'm freaking high now!
its not that i drink, took drug or whatever.
its because i pass all my modules this semester!
A-L-L!!!
after almost 3 years in poly, this is the first time i did so well.
you probably wont understand how i feel if you're doing well all the time.
and i dont need you to!
HAHAHAHAHA!

back to the sad news, xavier and jaeden will be away for some time.
xavier is finally going for his army shit and jaeden is interning at jakarta.
i swear i'm going to miss them real bad.
christie was here over the weekend as well.
time sure pass fast ya, its been 3 years since i last sat down and talk to her.
reminising about the good times was all i needed from her.
i really hope that all will be well for the person that i'm heavily indebted to.

too tired, sleeping soon... TO BE CONTINUE...

2008-08-10T14:07:00.003+08:00

i finally understand why everyone wish to drive a convertible.
you might say convertible cars is not your kind of thing,
but once you're in one, i'm 75% sure you'll think otherwise.
especially after you've tried the mercedes clk's and porsche's carrera.

the past weekends has been amazing.
i've pack it so tight that, almost every other moment is enjoyable.
car rounding, bike rounding, movie, window shopping, eating...
the bad news is that, i'm getting fatter and poorer. HAHAHA!

singtel's international call card is such a scam.
the fact that i've use their broadband and mobile plans,
i dont feel privilege at all, now, they even cheat me off that call card.
rarrrhhh!

its monday again.
feeling the blues again.
sigh.

2008-07-17T01:41:00.002+08:00

Internshi't' is driving me nuts.
i'm taking the most miserable pay with the longest working days.
5 and a 1/2 days! i cannot believe the fact that i need to work on saturday.
HELLO, i thought PM Lee said we're going to practice 5 days week!
crap.

that aside, work is relatively good.
okay, maybe slightly below average.
argh! dont know la, wake up so early, everything also not good la!
the comforting news is that the other interns there are really friendly.
i had lunch and dinner with them occasionally, which is great bonding.
oh! not to mention gossiping as well. typical office drama. ((:
i like the fact that it is just another level on top of honglim hawker centre.
the food there is simply awesomeeeeee!
BUT THEN AGAIN, the interns are leaving in august.
ALSO, it cost a bomb to ride there, i have to resort to train concession now!
argh!

credits to weijie for making efforts to contact the teacher for meet up.
we met up with mrs joanne tan on the last week of june.
i heard her stories and base on that, i can see how difficult her life is at the moment.
also, she should had shared stories about teacher to us in the past,
that way, we'll probably show more respect to them.
we also visited miss sharon tan, the geography teacher that i'm hugely in debt to.
she is a full time mummy now.
in the midst of all this, william and poh long mention about the thailand trip we had.
gosh, i almost forgotten how much fun that was.
they're planning to do a taiwan trip and i hope we could actually go.

eunice left for melbourne to study just 2 days ago.
though, we havent been contacting regularly nowadays,
i still cannot get over the fact that i cant call her randomly anymore now.
siwei was also on her flight back to perth already.
there wasnt much meet up, because she claims that i'm too "busy".
its actually the other way round, but as usual, everything must go her way.
i seriously admire myself for putting up with such a tyrant.
anyhow, we did had some precious quality time, especially the last night.
and if you're thinking of something lustful,
no. we didnt have sex.

inherting the spirit from stella, i had 3 consecutive days of red ink already.
red ink = late.
i better get to bed, before the fourth one come knocking!

2008-06-13T12:05:00.002+08:00

i'm in the midst of my much awaited holiday.
i've managed to keep myself super busy by working at hog's breath.
yes, its all because i need to sustain my bike's expenses.
CBR ROARRRRRR!

remember that i was talking about my english teacher in the last post,
not long after that, i receive news that she contacted some disease.
according to my friend, she is going through a really tough time.
sigh, i seriously hope all will be good for her really really soon.

i'll need to stop spending this month, or better, for good!
oh well, i always repeat that. LOL!

The gathering with all those old friends in CC was good.
awkward but good.
if only, they did that a little earlier, just that little bit earlier for him.

boon keong, rest in peace.
i assure you that you'll always be remembered. for us, at least.

2008-05-07T00:30:00.002+08:00

i just realise that if you didnt blog for awhile, it becomes really difficult to start.

lets see... genting trip. yes.
i had a really great time with the few people i went with,
shawn, jennifer, creston, sean and yvonne.
i got into the casino using bei boy's id for the first time in my life.
i promise you, its such an eye-opener.
lots of starbucks as i recalled and most importantly, lots of laughter.

i still havent get my 2A bike, which i didnt plan to.
i figured that mum should be really glad to know this.

recently, i've got this plan to try and chat with those that i usually dont.
i failed miserably.
i tried talking to those that i use to have good conversation with.
again, i failed.
you can be such good friends, but once you move on, its so hard to move back.

i've heard so much about this movie forrest gump way back.
courtesy to my secondary school english teacher, miss joanne tan.
but i only watch it like 2 weeks ago.
the bottomline is that, i'm just trying to promote the show to you. ((:
watch harrold and kumar too, but forrest gump first.
haha and theres this new show 21 coming out soon,
do not watch it online, i stress again, DO NOT WATCH IT ONLINE.
go to the cinema, that show deserve it.

whats the difference between probably and possibly?
well... go figure that out.

2008-04-08T05:30:00.003+08:00

alright, the detail of this post isnt quite like what i've mention on the previous.
korea was g r e a t!
i love every bit of the cold weather.
alright theres more to it, i'll blog down soon. (i hope)

big big thank you to "togetherness" for my birthday celebration.
i'm really glad to see most of you all there.
the presence of you all and the sole birthday present is much appreciated.

i'm promoted to captain in hog's breath already.
actually, the title doesnt mean much, its the 50cents pay rise that make me smile.
LOL! practical eh!

i'm leaving for malaysia, genting in approximately 2 hours time.
its a really last minute thing, so i hope everything would turn out fantastic.

all along, i've been denying the urge to get a 2A bike.
but now, a good offer was presented to me,
i just might get cbr400 afterall.

oh well,
let's wait and see.

2008-03-04T02:36:00.003+08:00

i know its been a while since i last blogged.
time really pass so quickly isnt it.
chinese lunar new year was pretty much spend on working.
ang bao was so freaking pathetic that i didnt even bother to count.

i'll be leaving for korea this sunday.
alot of effort has been put in for this much anticipated trip,
we has to change agency, settle this, settle that.
holiday is so difficult to plan.
whatever it is, i just cant wait for sunday to come.

i'm already waiting for my tp test for 2A.
really wondering whether i should get a bike.

caught quite a few shows recently.
among all, p.s i love you merit to be mention.
its a very poignant 5-stars show.
do catch it.

alright, i'll give a detailed entry about korea trip when i'm back.
till then...

2008-01-22T02:19:00.000+08:00

the first month of 2008 is coming to an end.
it is exactly at this point of time, when school work turn stressful.
this is the time where you either make or break.
thank god, i'm still at the right track for most of the modules.

korea trip is confirmed.
sarah, micah, sean and myself will be departing on the 3rd of march.
i can picture myself in the fluffy snow. HAHAHAHAHA!

3 more days to 2A!
can somebody tell me what shit is P-PLATE for!!??
LOL!

2007-12-29T07:46:00.000+08:00

basically, i'm just wasting my holiday away.
christmas was lousy, period.
dota is keeping me awake at night most of the time.
yes, dota AGAIN.
i sold my beloved motorcycle.
it was a tough decision, a very emotional seperation.

in loving memory of "zhan che"

26th January 2007 - 26th december 2007

on a joyous note,
MERRY CHRISTMAS & A HAPPY NEW YEAR!

2007-12-03T01:36:00.000+08:00

supper with the older batch of hog's staff yesterday.
my beloved prata is migrating to canada on the 16th.
i hope we can still get to meet up again,
but who knows, that might just be the last get-together.
nevertheless, its real good to see them after so long.
just so good.

2007-11-26T21:24:00.000+08:00

i dont even know whether it is a cold or a fever, but i have been sick for the past week.
suddenly, my health status seems to drop to the lowest point.
i got problems with my fingers, my back and even my teeth.

term test is coming, assignments are piling and i am stressing.
cant wait for it to be over and done with, but then again i dont really want it to arrive.

someone please motivate me to excercise can? sigh.

2007-11-02T01:26:00.000+08:00

hello november. ((:

guess this is an old piece of good news,
yesss i'm back in tp.
i seriously hope judy can get back in.
other then that, school is getting on fine.
i actually study better with all the "failures".

shawna's party was a blast.
its good to see the gc people there.
micah, like usual, was the heart of the party. hahaha!

went for bei boy's son first month celebration.
chuplao brothers were all so freaking happy for him.

planning to go korea after the semester, so i better not screw up.
NO SUPP PAPER FOR ME!
koreeeaaaaaaaaa!!!

signing off.

2007-10-19T03:54:00.000+08:00

i dont know why, but blogging is beginning to be tedious.
oh well, i treat it like a diary, so i better start penning something down.

vietnam trip was awesomeeeeeeeeeeee!
its like a total different experience.
first impression, the traffic there is extremely chaotic.
you can see like thousand of motorcyclist without helmet,
roaming around the street, ignoring the traffic light.
its like all hell break lose man!

we had dinner on a cruise for the first night,
that is when i realise how i'm going to suffer.
seafood is like the mainfood.
some days i actually only have rice and vegetable.
all our meal is damn seafood-ish. ARGH!

the war museum was mind-blowing.
i was browsing through pictures by pictures.
the whole thing really shook me.
the vietnam war, was really a disastrous period of time.

saigon tour!
we all get to sit on a trishaw and tour the city.
there are like 85 trishaws making their way through the traffic.
i got a really cool rider which describe to me whatever i saw.

i'm so upset that i didnt get to fire a rifle in cu-chi.
cu chi tunnel is where the tunnel war originated.
MIND YOU THE TUNNEL IS DAMN PATHETIC!
the only way of moving around is to duck walk.
when you come out from the tunnel,
your leg will become so weak that its like you just wank 10 times at a go.
the tour guide say the whole tunnel is about 200km long.
no wonder so many vietnamese died during the war,
they probably die while crawling through the tunnel.

the only fun part about mekong river is the sampan tour.
i give my utmost respect to the old lady that ferry us down.
its really really tiring, i gave up after 30 seconds. hahaha.

last but not least, all the parties everynight.
KICK ARSE MAN! :D

alright, that is pretty much it.
i'm so fucking sleepy. night world.

2007-10-14T05:28:00.000+08:00

rather busy this few weeks.
i'll give a full update really soon.
meanwhile be patient. ((:

2007-09-27T03:26:00.000+08:00

i'm typing this post, using only my left hand.
for many who havent know, i met with an accident.
i just had a surgery on my right little finger,
resulting in the inmobility of my right hand.
i got discharge recently.
thank god, i'm still able to walk. slow, but still able.
just couples of days ago,
i was so depress with the fact that my lower body could barely move.

i'm officially out of TP, because i miss my math supp paper.
all i can hope for, is the appeal to go through.
also, i still wish to go for the vietnam trip.

i could barely bend all of my fingers now,
so theres alot of thing i couldnt do.
i admit that i'm really affected by this.
sigh.
guess i should stop counting the things i couldnt do without my right hand,
and start counting the things i could do without my right hand.

i'll stop here. my left hand is aching. lol.

p.s. thank you xavier and yenn. ((:

2007-09-16T23:24:00.000+08:00

i just finish my 1 week long lesson for global citizenship.
its really a privilege to join gc.
the things i learnt and the people i met, incredible!
vietnam is so gonna be fun! ((:

impromptu dinner with shawna on yesterday.
search for desmond's present with sarah today.
rest of the time is dedicated to work and STUDIES!

oh yes, talk about studies.
the reason i'm doing it is because, WATSON GOT 5 SUPP!
POWER ANOT!?

yesyes, tagboard is down.
tagboard actually expire. i didnt know that.
i'll get someone to do it up shortly.

uxen went army already.
i'm so use to having that idiot around,
suddenly when he is not here, i'm like so bored.

p.s. uxen please dont say gay shit to me after reading this.

everyone seems to be in love.
so blissfully in love.
is mine coming?

2007-09-01T13:48:00.000+08:00

hello world.
i'm done with exam, which mean i'm on holiday now.
but then again, i'll still need to take supp for oopg and cmath.
oh and there is vacation cds, so its not really like holiday for me.
alright, enough about school.

heroes world tour at vivo yesterday.
augs and i was so near yet so far from claire. DAMN!
IT show is on again, i'm dying to go.
tomorrow it shall be, with prata.
poker tomorrow, somehow i'm dreading to go. weird.

well i guess theres still something to celebrate,
cause i dont need to put on a p-plate when i drive!
oh and dad was super nice to get me an amex!

i'm having this bad headache for the whole day.
its like a hangover, but i didnt even had a sip of alcohol.
fcuk up.

2007-08-23T05:19:00.000+08:00

i might actually be out of tp before i knew it.
oopg exam is tomorrow and i dont know a thing about it.
sigh. i hate being caught in such situation.
then again, who have i got to blame other then myself.

had dinner with the older staffs from hog on tuesday.
a night of pure fun.
pictures are uploaded in friendster, do check them out.

no mood to blog,
i'm seriously FUCKING STRESS.

2007-08-14T06:04:00.000+08:00

its really important to know how to drink.
of course, i meant alcohol.
too bad, i dont think i'll ever be able to do it.
i seriously detest alcohol, badly.

chilled at brozeit after a relaxing monday.
minus the fact that i wasnt allow to order peppermint tea,
and that i was to drink a weissbier, which desmond drank in the end,
the rest was good.

johor on saturday with wenkai and xavier.
shant talk about it,
nothing beat pushing your bike from 1 exit to another on BKE.

caught rush hour 3 on sunday with hog's staffs.
holy shit, damn funny la!
you'll definitely laugh your guts out.
5 stars for making everybody laugh so hard.
supper at newton after that,
well the food seriously taste bad.
dont encourage people to go there for supper.

oh well, i should be stressing about my studies now.
EXAM IS JUST NEXT WEEK. fuck!

2007-08-07T23:35:00.000+08:00

MY WEEKEND WAS A BLAST!
how i wish i could get weekend like this week in week out.

lets start from friday, post-weekend.
school in the noon and work at night as per normal.
decided to grab food from hogs with augustus and desmond.
we got like 2 table full of food and i paid nothing for it.
love free food, love it love it love it! HAHAHAHA!
DVDs at corn's place after that.
just a while, but its still a get together right. ((:

pon-tang work on saturday.
uxen got the van again.
this is the first time i see patrick ever since he got into army.
hahahaha damn funny la.
i swear, ARMY IS FUCKING BAD NEWS!
the 3 of us headed down to gekhui's birthday party.
met quite a handful of secondary school friends, but wasnt the close one.
ZOUK with weijie, eddie and jeremy after that.
zouk is the real deal man.
one whole night of maximum fun. lol.

sunday was the showdown.
as usual, i get to laze through my sunday.
met up with esmond and jeremy for bubble tea.
the last time i had honey limao was more then a year back man.
i borrowed jeremy's psp, which i realise is very very handy.
come the night when i met up with my colleagues!
"zhi-char" at coffeshop before we start our poker game at shawn's place.
neither daidee nor blackjack can be compare to poker. ultimate!
we had 6 straight hours of fun and then its monday, where the blue sinks in.

ohwell, i guess you should have figured out why i like poker so much.
definitely something to do with ME WINNING MONEY right?
so yes, that cap off the AMAZING WEEKEND! ((:

2007-07-31T05:40:00.000+08:00

i skipped class today.
oh well, i do it every monday and thursday.
the only thing new this time round is that mr woo call up my dad.
so, as you can tell, i'm in shit trouble.

I WAS SELECTED FOR VCDS!
which mean, i'll be going to vietnam in october.
okay, vietnam dont sound exciting, but then i'm just glad to clear a cds.
how did i know that i get selected?
because, mr woo called, asking me to see him at 3 tomorrow.
yes, i'm so screwed.

school aside, i had an enjoyable sunday.
woke up really late, like 6-ish kind.
uxen borrowed his company's mini van from his dad,
so we all tuck into the van and headed down to suntec for dinner.
we decided to pamper ourself abit, so we had kenny roger.
the company, the food plus the ambience. SPLENDID!

okay its going to be 6am in a few minutes time,
i dont know why i always sleep at 2 and wake up at 5.
its like taking afternoon nap.
oh god, what happen to me!

2007-07-21T04:24:00.000+08:00

na... siwei,
your message came in at 0111,
when i saw it, the time read 0116.
i was only 5 minutes late.

if only you could wait that 5 minutes,
my call will go through.
i'll let you know
how much i miss you,
how much i still like you.
that i'll wait for you to come over for dinner next time.
if only we had that 5 minutes, if only...

i'll hate you for this.
i'll hate you for always leaving me like this.
perhaps that 5 minutes prove too much for us.
so much so that, we'll be seperated for good.
my heart bleed
just because of the 5 minutes...

2007-07-19T06:21:00.000+08:00

i was browsing through websites randomly until i chance upon jamie's blog.
jamie yeo to be exact.
and it so happen that, jamie once put her hand across my shoulder.
till now, i still mention it occasionally to spite my friends. ((:

HBO is showing lord of the dogtown now.
yes, playing such a nice show at 0630? crap.
i remember skipping poly classes and watch it with jeremiah.
no, we dont really hang out together in poly now.
you dont know how much i miss my secondary school days.
were reminiscing the highlighted event during our lower secondary years.
how foolish and childish we were? yet, it was so enjoyable.
it sucks to know that we'll never be able to do those silly things again.

jeremiah, joshua, gabriel, omar and many others.
its so good to have you guys around.

2007-07-16T04:26:00.000+08:00

father, we'll tide through this.

2007-07-14T04:08:00.000+08:00

thanks to togetherness for watching transformer without me,
i had to make-do by watching the lousy pirated dvd of transformer with uxen.
xavier then came over for bike washing session.
slack abit then home sweet home.

i think some of my classmates hate me.
whatever, not like i'm bothered.

it hurts.
what have i done to the girl i like?

2007-07-09T01:17:00.000+08:00

i'm still contemplating whether to attend in3d test tomorrow.
school is driving me crazy.
rarrrrhhhhh!

chill out with lynn, chris, sarah and yee rae after work.
yee rae's tolerance for alcohol is incredible la.
she not only survived that knock out drink from shawn,
plus she had like 5 other shots of tequila and that japanese drink.
oh well, the ladies were really concern about me.
i really really appreciate it.

supper with jiahao, jeremy and ronald.
by the way, i'm officially in love with ronald's honda wave.
my bike only causes me to go into the state of depression.

for now,
i really need something to happen in my life...

2007-07-04T04:02:00.001+08:00

its already 4 in the morning.
which means i'll probably skip apel tomorrow.

bike wash with xavier and uxen was awesome.
i posted pictures of my new paintjob up in friendster already.
those interested, do check it out. ((:

fernando torres is going LIVERPOOL!

i want to go town!
i want to shop!
i want to watch transformer! (nabei togetherness watch without me!)

anyway, big thank you to weijie for getting the fossil warranty for me.
yes my watch just die on me last week.
and i heard it can take up to a month to fix it. what the fuck?

i'm turning in.

2007-06-28T14:53:00.000+08:00

seriously! 4 hours lessons are sick.
its tormenting you both mentally and physically.
i wonder if the lecturer feel the same way.

visited malaysia like every other day during holiday.
cheapskate what.
my bike has a new look now, i'll upload the pictures in friendster.
theres still so much to do for my bike, so much to spend.
sigh.

the heavy financial dip causes me to live on a tight budget now.
5 bucks a day. no more lunch, no more supper.
being teenagers are so stressful.

better start doing my assignment,
i need to honour my word and start mugging.
argh... somebody save me!

2007-06-18T05:43:00.000+08:00

saturday was prata's last day.
he suffered the same shit i got on my birthday.
the instant knock out drink by shawn.
however, we still manage to drag that ass to lau pat sat and then the pub.
you can never the oh-so-innocent looking yeerae can hold liquor so well.
sigh. i'm such a loser, i stuck with my green tea through out. hahaha.
i think xin en was kind of angry at me yesterday night.
boo!
anyway, so many people left, work doesnt seem that fun anymore.

i wasted 12 hours on sleeping today.
headed back to vivo to collect my bike.
i left it there till to heavy rain the previous night.
chill abit at hogs.
ben and jerry's ice cream for dinner.
how healthy!

i think i got too use of having afternoon nap.
that should explain why i slept at 3am and woke up at 6am.
luckily alicia, corn and phyllis were at jacq's place.
if not i would be dead bored la.

gonna discuss some bike issue with mystery.
shit, its already 6 in the morning.
GOOD MORNING!

2007-06-14T03:23:00.000+08:00

mos was shit pack today.
all i can remember was queuing and queuing.
so screwed that we ended up slacking at macdonald.
lousy.

johor with xavier yesterday.
i'll be leaving my bike there for 2 weeks to spray.
i cant wait for the new look la!

supper with kenneth, alicia, cheehong and leonard.
sit at kopitiam and talk for 6 freaking hours.
leonard is god damn funny can.

kelvin just thought me how to cook carbonara.
oh my god, that idiot cook really delicious pasta la.
swear to god, its 10 TIMES better then pasta mania's.
maybe, he is not such a lousy chef as i perceived.
shall try it one day. guinea pig, anyone? haha!

alright i'm off to.... my japanese drama. ((:

2007-06-06T00:59:00.000+08:00

oopg paper starts at 1230.
judy called at 1225, at that point of time, i was still lying on my bed.
i dont think i need to continue.
cmath will be a borderline failure, i studied hard for it, but not hard enough.
sigh.
all i can bang on now is my cmsy paper.
oh, did i mention that i skip inmm and dbis paper?

studied at the airport with alicia.
we spent an hour studying, 3 hours touring with the trolley
another half an hour studying, the rest of the hour we use it to prank call people.
HAHAHAHA!

visited clara's place the next day with alicia and corn.
munching and watching tv plus a teeny weeny bit of studying.

rochor beancurd with clara, alicia, corn and yunfan.
god! how long has it been since i last saw fan.
catch up abit then off to study at corn's place.

malaysia trip with forum's kaki!
i just love going johor bahru la.
going in this sunday to spray my bike.
which mean i wont see my bike for about 2 weeks!

void deck supper with sarah.
grab food and listening to music.
just like the sony ericsson's advertisement.
LOL

mum was super nice to buy me a really ugly everlast sneakers.
i still got to go down and change it myself.
defeat the purpose, but i got a shirt and a shoe at a steal! *smirk

pool a little with uxen today.
even though i didnt touch a cue for like months,
i still thrash that idiot 5 to nothing.
uxen is just too useless.

thats all folks.
my yet another lengthy post. ((:

2007-05-28T00:59:00.000+08:00

pirates of the carribean today!
russell tan got me so excited by helping me recall the show.
oh yes, it was good.
thats what everybody said, i just followed. hahahaha!

school hasnt been good.
i didnt passup my in3d journal.
miss my cmath test due to work.
its quite shitty.

i'm starting to get bored of work.
seriously, i havent found the reason for it.
but ya, thats what i feel now.
then again, i wont be quitting cause i need the money, BADLY!

i got my bike fix already.
its running really well now.
however, her lifetime ends anytime, so ya i'm not exactly happy.

supper with qianling, chris, sarah and prata.
had punggol nasi lemak.
its not that fantastic afterall.
never mind that, the company is enough. ((:

tay lend me another japanese show recently.
completed it this morning.
"zai shi jie de zhong xin hu han ai"
my next hot recommendation!
the show is so touching, you'll just start tearing.

i finally understand why people stop blogging.
you started out because its quite fun.
you blog frequently for people to read.
slowly you start to feel lazy about blogging.
resulting in lesser people viewing.
then you just gave up.
no?
but my experience was something along this line.
just that i started out because i want to let her read.
that probably explain the lack of posts recently.

i'm pretending that everything is fine without you.
hoping that time will help me forget about you.
but right now, i'm still pretending.

2007-05-19T04:54:00.000+08:00

alicia is my new found companion in school.

finally, i can put a stop to my loner status.

hahaha.

supper with sarah on wednesday.

chat and eat until the owner got to chase us away.

we got countless topic to talk on la. LOL!

visited my uncle yesterday.

he just had his operation and yes, he is getting better.

first thing he ask when he saw me, "got ciggarette not?"

smoker, never change. sigh.

work was good today.

yee rae treated me pineapple tart!

mind you, she bought it from a really famous pineapple confectionary.

been bumping around with jiahao, jeremy and eddie at night.

eddie's NS life is damn funny la.

the same time, it makes me super detest NS.

imagine that you cant shower for 6 days.

wah lan eh! HOW CAN!?

joseph was super sway-ed.

he came over to my place only to realise that i just left home.

then he had to endure the tormenting sun to get to the bikeshop.

but for me, worth it la.

my bike is officially a transport bike now.

i'm damn depress about it.

SIGH!

thank god, blogger saves the post automatically now.

if not, this long entry will not be up. ((:

2007-05-12T04:01:00.000+08:00

supper with sarah chong yesterday.
we eat then talk and talk till late.
that lucky girl is leaving for vietnam in 2 hours time,
a weekend get-away with her sis. rich brat!
hahs.

barbeque with "togetherness" today.
what can i say? the company is awesomeeeeeeee!
digging the food together, cycling and slacking together.
best!

i'm doing my very best to study in class.
which is going on quite well.

i'm almost done with running-in!
YAY!
chiong chiong chiong! hahahahaha.

off to bed. night!

2007-05-07T01:37:00.000+08:00

bar-tending is one of the toughest job i ever had!
settling the bill, making drinks, topping up ice-water, washing glasses and many more.
running around that small rectangle is tougher then running around the whole restaurant.

lynn was super nice as she waited for me to knock off.
the trip home with her was always interesting. hahs!
anyway she's my new maria (maid) at work. HAHAHA!

caught spiderman 3 today!!!
jeremy was super nice to watch it again for weijie, jiahao, zhuang and me.
his reason being: "i want to laugh at how emo spidey is!"
LOL!

i'm in the midst of getting my room into the right shape.
which, it still hasnt, but definitely great improvement.

lesson start at 8 in the morning and i'm still here.
shit, i better get to sleep soon.

2007-05-01T02:37:00.000+08:00

for the very first time, i actually know whats going on in 3D class.
not that i'm starting to take a liking in 3D, i'm just forcing myself.
russell was right, i'll just have to suck up my pride,
make more friends in new classes and start studying.

work is gooooodddd!
did i mention that rodrick quitted.
i'm gonna miss his company big time.
i got promoted, but i'm not happy 'bout it.
to make thing worst, i'm replacing prata in the bar.
dont understand, doesnt matter.
yes, dilemma.

shant continue, i'm beyond tired.

2007-04-28T01:24:00.000+08:00

school suck big time!
i got no friends to hang out with in class.
how can you stand studying without knowing anyone.
its difficult to even find friends to grab food with me.
argh! me and my fuck up timetable.

was force to attend this seminar about 3D this morning.
the graphics, animations and blah blah blah were mesmerising.
but, the amount of effort and skills needed is UNBELIEVABLE!
it was suppose to encourage me, guess it kind of went the other way instead.

anyhow, i just spend like 300buck on my bike.
the piston is new, meaning i'll have to run in for a thousand click.
run in means that i cannot travel for more then 80km/hr.
by doing that, i'm actually considered road hogging.
also it requires me to set off 5 to 10 minutes earlier.
bullshit!

work is good for me.
i hope i get my payrise man!
according to them, i stand a really really great chance.
i'll just have to wait patiently.
i feel so threaten by lynn.
yes, the threaten king watson is under threat my that little junk.
gosh, all thanks to my fucking big mouth.

ohwell, i'm gonna go get my supper now.
peace.

2007-04-23T13:18:00.000+08:00

oh my tian, theres so so many things to blog about.
anyway, i'm back in school.
yes, blogging in the middle of my lesson.
time table is such a mess, mainly because of all the modules i need to retake.
fail any of the retake and i'm out of school. sigh.

oh well, i'm quite done with my wishlist already. HAHA!
my hectic working schedule finally pay off.

mos with kenneth, judy, vanessa, hanlin and kelly.
celebrated kenneth's birthday.
lucky shit, i spent my 18th birthday alone at home la.

head down to powerhouse with shawn, joshua, prata, monica and alvin.
alvin got us in for freeee.
let me tell you, that day was awesomeeeeeee!
hell lots of fun.

i freaking hope that i can get my lappy back soon.
they took almost a week to service already la. idiots!

back to lesson. boo